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everything you had got destroyed.
one.
you began to cry, just crying. the deep and
ugly kind, the kind you lose yourself in;
though you're thanking God that no one
has to see how rubbed and blotched
your face becomes. though, some detached
part of you also wishes there was someone
there to see you now, to see
and understand just how sad you are at heart.
they don't see it and of course,
you would never show them.
two.
most of all i'm scared of walking out of this room
and never feeling, for the rest of my life,
the way i feel when i'm with you..
three.
this might be my last chance, so maybe i should take it.
i just hope your listening to everything i'm saying.
i miss the long drives, the car rides,
the bad fights, the good times. the way you make
me feel will never leave my mind. think of you later
in my empty room where i will fall asleep alone.
four.
still bleeding from these back stabbed scars.
five.
my nerves have been shaking twenty-four seven
and i've stopped
trying to calm them.
nothing, and i mean nothing, seems right anymore.
each day gets more dreadful and each day
i wish i wasn't here just a
little more than
the day before. i've been back in a corner for days
and
no one will pull me out. being alone really does
feel as awful as it sounds.
between the arguments
and the tears, i can't hear my own thoughts
anymore.
i have no clue of what i want, what i need,
what i should have.
i miss being able to count on you.
six.
how could i have been so fucking dumb,
to think that i'm your number one?
well, baby you flipped the switch.
seven.
do you know the most surprising thing about heartache?
it doesn't actually kill you. like a bullet to the heart,
or a head-on car wreck, it should. when someone
you've promised to cherish forever says,
"i never loved you," it should kill you instantly.
you shouldn't have to wake up day after day after that,
trying to understand how in the world you didn't know.
eight.
no one deserves to be treated that way.
so even if you love him with your entire heart,
with every fiber of your being, with so much
passion that it hurts to think about it, you need to
forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
(words to live by)
nine.
you had me crawling for you hunny and it
never would have gone away. you used
to shine so bright but i watched all of it fade.
-taylor swift
ten.
you said i always sang too loud to
sing you a fucking love song.
well, i save my soft voice for the things i really mean.
you always said i had a hard time
saying what's on my mind. well, here it goes.
i hate you for what you've done to me.
eleven.
i wanted it to be you.
i wanted it to be you so badly.
twelve.
maybe it was how cynical she was,
or how she found out a long time ago
that nothing good stays, but she knew
from the first day that their relationship started,
it would not end with a clean cut.
it would be messy and painful and untimely.
this she knew.
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you'll regret those things
you put me through.
one.
you will learn to help yourself.
it will break your heart, and it will
make you strong.
two.
my inner demons compel me to be here.
your cheeks are flush, like rose petals.
you're consumed with rage,
but i'm consumed with you.
three.
that was the day i stopped believing in love.
that kind of love. the love in books and films.
the love that tells us to abandon our lives
and plans, all for one brief touch of venus.
so often we fail at that kind of love.
the world just seems too fragile a place for it.
perhaps it's just that we are too fragile.
four.
your looking for love in all the wrong places,
seeing empty faces, awkward situations.
everything you said was a lie,
who are you pretending to be tonight.
five.
and then i felt sad because i realized
that once people are broken in certain ways,
they can't ever be fixed, and this is
something nobody ever tells you when
you are young and it never fails to surprise
you as you grow older and you see
the people in your life break one by one.
you wonder when your turn is going to be,
or if it's already happened.
six.
i’m tired of the way it feels.
i only apologize to you to make you feel better.
i’d rather be alone. you're about as
reliable as paper shoes in bad weather.
seven.
don't waste your time with people
who don't make you feel alive.
eight.
i feel uptight when i walk in the city
i feel so cold when i'm at home.
feels like everything's starting to hit me,
i lost my bearings ten minutes ago.
nine.
each new day in suburbia brings with it a
new set of lies. the worst are the ones we
tell ourselves right before we fall asleep. we
whisper them in the dark, telling ourselves
we're happy, or that he's happy. that we can
change or that he will change his mind. we
persuade ourselves that we can live with our
sins, or that we can live without him. yes, each
night before we fall asleep we lie to ourselves
in a desperate, desperate hope that come
morning - it will all be true. it will all be okay.
ten.
it's okay. it's okay to want someone you can't have.
it's okay to keep friendships when you
don't want them, or want something more.
it's okay to cry when you're hurt,
and it's okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you.
eleven.
i've been running around for the past year
with absolutely no direction.
i didn't know what i wanted.
all i knew was that you were always there,
always in my head, always under my skin.
and when you kissed me last night,
for the first time all year, i felt whole.
twelve.
the fact is, lying is a necessity.
we lie to ourselves cause the truth,
the truth freaking hurts, no matter
how hard we try to ignore or deny it,
eventually the lies fall away.
whether we like it or not.
but here's the truth about the truth..
it hurts. so we lie.
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yesterday i found out about you.
even now just looking at you feels wrong.
one.
you can sleep in your own bed tonight.
i hope for your sake you don't
wake up as broken as i am.
two.
maybe i'm confused,
don't know what to do.
maybe i'm just blind,
looking into your eyes.
three.
along the way, i’ve learned that
you can’t let anyone in too far
and you can’t trust endlessly.
the biggest mistake you can
make is to care or love someone
more than yourself, because
then you are just setting yourself
up for disappointment.
boundaries are necessary
so that you can protect yourself,
because once you’re broken,
you’ll never be fully fixed.
four.
although it is such a singular word,
there are many variations of alone.
there is the alone of an empty beach
at twilight. there is the alone of an
empty hotel room. there is the alone
of being caught in a throng of people.
there is the alone of missing a
particular person. and there is the
alone of being with a particular
person and realizing you're still alone.
five.
maybe its the only way we can
finally stand on our own.
you know, to hurt each other
so much that we have no choice.
six.
uptight and desperate for attention.
we're all lost and begging to be found.
with every word you say,
you lead everyone on.
seven.
where do you go when you’re face
down on the floor, wondering what
you fell from the night before?
you know you’ve got to get up some
time, you’ve got to get up some time.
eight.
and the lies - that fell
so easy from his lips.
nine.
you keep saying that things will change.
it's time you wonder, will they ever?
you keep praying they go away,
all your problems, all the drama.
ten.
don't you get it? everyone feels like a fake.
everyone feels like they've gotten themselves
into something they can't handle.
everyone is overwhelmed. that's just life.
eleven.
have you broken down, just given up?
got turned around, abandoned hope,
and your tired heart gave up the beat,
you drop your head in your defeat.
and all this pain, and all this fear,
things have gotten worse this year.
twelve.
i know there will be risks, but i want to
face them with you. it's wrong that we
should only be half alive, half of ourselves.
i love you. so here i am, standing in your doorway.
i've always been standing in your doorway.
isn't it about time somebody saved your life?
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and the lies - that fell
so easy from his lips.
one.
i should have known that we'd
never get anywhere. you can't
fall in love when you're falling apart.
and you can't make amends if
you're only making mistakes.
empty words can't fix a broken heart.
two.
pain like that is
fast and it's rare. </3
-brad paisley
three.
i feel like changing but i've lost control.
i just can't find my heart. i thought
i was winning by burning
bridges and tearing things apart.
four.
i'm cuddling back to my bed with so
much left unsaid and i can't let go.
five.
keep it in mind, another place another time.
complications, they're all mine.
with curtains closing, step by step
we fall one at a time. if this is what you want,
if this is what you need, scream it out to me.
six.
i want to make art, i want to paint,
but i'm lazy and so are my days.
i want to run, i want to be free,
but i'm scared of what i aspire to be.
seven.
i'd listen to her,
cause i know how it hurts.
when you lose the one you
wanted, cause hes taken
you for granted. and everything
you had got destroyed. </3
-beyonce
eight.
now you've got me where my heart is.
tell me that you need this,
tell me that you want this so badly it hurts.
nine.
for all the things that you ever said,
for all the lies that you built up in
my head, it's my time for revenge.
i cared to try but i don't care anymore.
i'm understanding so i'll leave my
bleeding heart for you on your door.
what seems to me are the fallacies
from a story that at one time i believed.
will i wake from this dream?
ten.
i get up every morning and
go to bed every night, with
this feeling that something
is missing, but i don't know what
and i don't know why. this emptiness
is just killing me, and i can't
do anything, not even cry.
eleven.
i was a dreamer before
you and you let me down.
-taylor swift
twelve.
but you aren't leaving
without a fight, and i think
i'm just as torn inside.
-missy higgins
the last three years were just pretend.
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still bleeding from these
back stabbed scars.
one.
you're repeating me lines that
you think i wanna hear.
but i don't wanna hear anymore.
as if sorry is any consolation.
for what it's worth,
you're stringing me along.
two.
being able to survive it doesn't
mean it was ever okay.
three.
i don't know who i
am without you.
-missy higgins
four.
i wish we could just go back to that
night where everything felt so right.
five.
it hurts to want everything and
nothing at the same time.
-michelle branch
six.
he knew he made a mistake.
you could see it in his face every
time she walked into the room.
he wished he hadn't done that to her.
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